R.M. ENGELHARDT

Poet Writer Author Albany NY

  • What’s On Holden Caulfield’s Playlist?

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    Oh, Spotify, how I love you.

    While I’m writing at work, I can pretty much pull up any song ever and listen to it—thanks to you, Spotify.

    I can also do stupid and pointless stuff, like imagining what songs might be on Holden Caulfield’s Spotify playlist—were he actually a real person, alive today, as a teenager, with access to modern technology like computers and such.

    So that’s what I’m doing today. I’m taking a stab at coming up with a Spotify playlist for perhaps the most annoying character in modern literature, Holden Caulfield from The Catcher in the Rye.

    While he’s annoying and hardly bearable, that doesn’t mean his musical selections are:

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  • field of night

     

     

    I am the wandering poet,
    I do not sleep
    I am wasting these days in the dregs
    Of the deep.

    I live in the church of myself
    Bizarre & unfulfilled,
    The spirit of the waking man,
    And the fool, the reckless fool.

    For I am walking round the circle
    From the outside looking in,
    I am the shadow on the wall
    And the wall is growing thin.

    So can you see me?

    Only Here

    And There,

    And Now?

     

    _____________

     

    ~ R.M. Engelhardt

  • And In This Corner- R.M.

     

    And in this corner;

     

    It’s the hollow man &

    The drunken muse

    And that song

    That goes like this’

     

    As the rain came down

    Upon the city streets & poets, sonnets

    And upon all of the earth

    As If Mozart had just

    Written it all for you

    On a Saturday night

    Himself

     

     

     

    [And In Parenthesis]

     

    The next round begins,

    And they ring the bell

     

    It’s the ghost in the machine

    And all the silences in-between

     

    Lifetimes.

     

    Lovers

    And friends

    And strangers

    And there’s a savior on every block

    Just waiting for you with

    The answer in their hands

    Saying;

     

    I’m alone in the dark

    Without the directions home

     

     

    So there,

     

    Do you see?

    All the desolate and the

    Lost, the poor, and the rich

    Who still ignore them,

    See the universe

    In vibrant words

    And they just ignore you

     

    Still.

     

     

     

    As you,

    Wordsmith of

    The angry masses

    Can only scream

     

    Fuck you!

     

    To Thine

    Own Self

     

    Be True

     

    Be True.

     

     

    And in this corner

    It’s the serpent’s coil

    And the soul of the dragon,

    This world a weeping failure

    In thy form, and in thy sight

    As they pour more champagne

    Half full into the glass

     

     

     

     

    And it’s still the same damn song that goes like this,

     

    As they lit our cigarettes with dollar bills

    As all the children starved to death

     

     

     

     

    In Shitsville & Manhattan,

    And in the U. S. of A. America

    Where all the rains came down

    A hard rain still

    Falling In buckets, sonnets & poems

    That changed nothing

    And never will

     

     

    Because no one even

    Bothered to ever

    Read the words or

    The writing on the wall

     

    To see.

    ___________

     

    ~ R.M. Engelhardt

     

  • VOX POETRY OPEN MIC, ALBANY NY CIRCA 1999
    VOX POETRY OPEN MIC, ALBANY NY CIRCA 1999
  • Tonight on television
    there is an actor
    talking about his battle with
    drug addiction, sex addiction and life.

    You would think that by the way
    the host is interviewing him
    that he is wise & worldly, an
    ancient sage from his
    battle with the curse

    of “celebrity”

    And there are a billion lights
    in the great big city, a million lives
    that get up everyday and go to work like
    everybody else. And their addiction is food,
    their addiction is rent and how to somehow
    get thru the next day and make sure that
    their children are dressed, educated & well-fed.

    So the question is is that when you
    look at the world do you see a gift? Or do you see an
    enemy? Do you have faith or do you pretend that
    all of these famous people are like you or your friends?

    The constant partying,
    the good life, broads & booze,
    high fashion, money and
    Paris Hilton bending over your
    patio bench just waiting for
    a piece of what you’ve got to give.

    But there are those of us who
    happen to live in the real world,
    those who believe in more than just
    the shallow trash that all the others
    seem to admire.

    And they call us the survivors who don’t
    need the shit or the television to fulfill our
    needs. The survivors who don’t need the
    drama or the fake religions of the moment,
    the meth or the cocaine, a little dog or
    a brand new $400. dollar purse.

    ________________
    R.M. ENGELHARDT

     

  • Marriage by RM Engelhardt

     

                 R.M. ENGELHARDT, 2015

  • The most important things to do in the world are to get something to eat, something to drink and somebody to love you.

    ~ Brendan Behan

    Happy St. Patrick’s Day

     

    whisky

  • rings

    I want you to know
    one thing.

    You know how this is:
    if I look
    at the crystal moon, at the red branch
    of the slow autumn at my window,
    if I touch
    near the fire
    the impalpable ash
    or the wrinkled body of the log,
    everything carries me to you,
    as if everything that exists,
    aromas, light, metals,
    were little boats
    that sail
    toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

    Well, now,
    if little by little you stop loving me
    I shall stop loving you little by little.

    If suddenly
    you forget me
    do not look for me,
    for I shall already have forgotten you.

    If you think it long and mad,
    the wind of banners
    that passes through my life,
    and you decide
    to leave me at the shore
    of the heart where I have roots,
    remember
    that on that day,
    at that hour,
    I shall lift my arms
    and my roots will set off
    to seek another land.

    But
    if each day,
    each hour,
    you feel that you are destined for me
    with implacable sweetness,
    if each day a flower
    climbs up to your lips to seek me,
    ah my love, ah my own,
    in me all that fire is repeated,
    in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
    my love feeds on your love, beloved,
    and as long as you live it will be in your arms
    without leaving mine.

     

    ~  Pablo Neruda

     

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    So

     

    You want to be a poet?

     

    Then stand in line

     

    Because just like every other damn poet

    That ever came before you

    You’ll have to write

     

    And Twitter, Tumblr, Fumblr

    Whatever, will never save

    Your sorry ass

     

    And the Pushcart Prize?

    They won’t reward you

    For writing a Facebook

    Status that’s poetic

     

    And just like

    Emily, no one no

    Publisher will ever

    Come knocking

    At your door

    Looking for your poems

     

    So listen;

     

    Because there is no new

    Jack Kerouac, no new Bukowski

    And no new Poe

     

    And Shakespeare?

     

    He threw down his pencil

    A longtime ago after Marlowe

    Bought the farm

     

    So just like all of the most

    Famous poets of old expect

    No compliments, no fortune

    And no dough and learn how

    To live on noodles

     

    And believe me

    When I say that

    When you tell Mom & Dad

    That you want to be

    A poet someday?

     

    Don’t expect them to

    Embrace you or let you

    Ever move back home again

     

    Because remember

     

    That this is the life that you chose

    And if you ever finally find

    Finally write that one piece

    That one amazing epiphany

    That says it all and that says

    Everything and that has the

    Power to knock the world

    On its ass?

     

    Then maybe one day

    You’ll be able to look

    In the mirror and say

     

    It was all worth it.

    _____________

    R.M. ENGELHARDT 

  • buk2

    “there is a loneliness in this world so great

    that you can see it in the slow movement of
    the hands of a clock.

    people so tired
    mutilated
    either by love or no love.

    people just are not good to each other
    one on one.

    the rich are not good to the rich
    the poor are not good to the poor.

    we are afraid.

    our educational system tells us
    that we can all be
    big-ass winners.

    it hasn’t told us
    about the gutters
    or the suicides.

    or the terror of one person
    aching in one place
    alone

    untouched
    unspoken to

    watering a plant.”

    ~  Charles Bukowski, Love is a Dog from Hell