R.M. ENGELHARDT

Poet Writer Author Albany NY

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    WE ARE WAITING …

     

    The Doctor

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    As long as You are not angry with me then I do not care
    For me is the model of Musab bin Umayr
    The best dressed man in the city
    But that was for him a state of pity
    Until there came to him the Message
    All did he leave of his privilege
    For the sake of Allah and His Beloved

    As long as You are not angry with me then I do not care
    For I think of Bilal when his chest was bare
    On the burning sand did they make him lie
    Until he thought he was going to die
    They crushed him with rocks in the blazing sun
    And begged him to reject the Almighty One
    But never did he give in to the wicked

    As long as You are not angry with me then I do not care
    I remember Khabbaab when they pulled his hair
    In the blacksmiths of his evil mistress
    With burning rods did she cause him distress
    She twisted his neck and burnt his skin
    Until his fat dripped into a tin
    But he remained firm to his belief as long as he lived

    As long as You are not angry with me then I do not care
    For I picture Khubaib when he was there
    Tied and bound to an immovable tree
    With no chance of him being free
    Their spears and arrows did they fling
    Yet grapes to him did his Lord bring
    Until his noble soul was lifted

    As long as You are not angry with me then I do not care
    I think of Yasir, Sumaiyah and their heir
    Even when placed on sizzling ember
    None but their Lord did they remember
    Patience you all when paying this price
    Indeed your abode is Paradise
    As a reward for all that you did.

    As long as You are not angry with me, then I do not care
    My example is Your Beloved when struck from the rear
    By the sticks and stones of Taif’s crowd
    Yet he did cry in a voice so loud:
    “O Lord! Forgive my people for they do not know,”
    And even thought I am feeling so low…

    As long as You are not angry with me, then I do not care.

    -Babar Ahmed

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    HUNTER

    Like most others, I was a seeker, a mover, a malcontent, and at times a stupid hell-raiser. I was never idle long enough to do much thinking, but I felt somehow that some of us were making real progress, that we had taken an honest road, and that the best of us would inevitably make it over the top.

    At the same time, I shared a dark suspicion that the life we were leading was a lost cause, that we were all actors, kidding ourselves along on a senseless odyssey. It was the tension between these two poles – a restless idealism on one hand and a sense of impending doom on the other – that kept me going.

    ~  Hunter S. Thompson
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    Biography 

    Poet- Writer R.M. Engelhardt’s work over the years has been published and has R.M. Engelhardt’s work has appeared in many journals & magazines in both print and on the net including in Retort, Rusty Truck, Sure! The Charles Bukowski Newsletter, Thunder Sandwich, The Boston Literary Review, Full of Crow, Fashion For Collapse, 2nd Avenue Poetry, The Outlaw Poetry Network & in many others.

    The Resurrection Waltz is his 13th book of poetry.

    www.rmengelhardt.com

     

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    HELL

     

    “If you want to understand the social and political history of modern man, study hell.”

    ~ Thomas Merton

    It’s probably like the excitement of your first cigarette, but it lasts forever, that dizzying nausea — the Unknown: with imitation human heads on their buttocks, bats leaping from black books, dragon tails waving, monkey glands everywhere, hope dying slowly like a bad marriage, “I am nobody” the only conversation.

    But then again the damned might be as unrecognizable and stupid as the living: men who use the same condom twice, women who let them, the degenerate who molested Spider-Man — everyone perpetually suing each other, holding hands in a circle whose rim clangs like a counterfeit coin.

    But more likely it’s the general humiliation of being dead, realizing your own personal Beelzebub might be the least weird guy you know.
    © 1997 by Peter Johnson. 

  • Time Journal

    Books measure time in both moments and years.

    We all grow old but the stories never will.

    ~ R.M. Engelhardt

  • 10 Neurotic Quotes

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

    Mignon McLaughlin

    (born 6 June 1913, died 20 December 1983)

    I tell you this, and I tell you plain
    What you have done, you will do again
    You will bite your tongue, careful or not
    Upon the already-bitten spot.

     

    10 Neurotic Quotes

    1. Everybody can write; writers can’t do anything else.
    2. Most of us become parents long before we have stopped being children.
    3. Most sermons sound to me like commercials – but I can’t make out whether God is the Sponsor or the Product.
    4. We would all like a reputation for generosity and we’d all like to buy it cheap.
    5. When threatened, the first thing a democracy gives up is democracy.
    6. Neurotics are anxiety prone, accident prone, and often just prone.
    7. It took man thousands of years to put words down on paper, and his lawyers still wish he wouldn’t.
    8. No one really listens to anyone else, and if you try it for a while you’ll see why.
    9. It’s innocence when it charms us, ignorance when it doesn’t.
    10. A critic can only review the book he has read, not the one which the writer wrote.

    McLaughlin was an American journalist and author. She wrote two volumes entitled The Neurotic’s Notebook and The Complete Neurotic’s Notebook . She became a journalist and write short stories for Redbook, Cosmopolitan, and other women’s magazines. She worked for Vogue in the 1940s, and was Copy Editor and Managing Editor of Glamour magazine in the 1960s and early 1970s.

    by Amanda Patterson for Writers Write

  • June 6, 1944
    June 6, 1944
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    Cabo San Lucas

    Rising early to beat the heat
    a little dry from last nights booze.
    We’re soon out miles from land where
    the big fish roam under the sun
    and stars, undisturbed by time’s
    wave-measured march.

    Slicing bonito for bait, the blood is
    red against all the blue. Blue above
    and below. The hook, hungering for
    meat, shines blue in my hand as
    I drop its feathered plume into the wake.

    We drink beer and wait for the line to sing,
    rattling off the reel like a runaway train,
    tightening under the drag, burning the leather stop.
    The marlin leaps, its bill skewering the sky,
    carves and dances in the blue, then twists and dives.

    The rod quivers in the belt. Leather biting my back
    I reel and pull, the marlin leaps again,
    I heave forward and rare back as fire
    sweat and salt gather on my skin
    A moment’s slack, a shake, the fish is free.

    Why aren’t all losses as lovely as this?
    Quien sabe?

    For Reagan

    He’ll go far, of that I’m sure
    since grease and a smile
    will get you a mile in this town.
    People love him, but what do
    they know? He’s just another
    B-grade star with an A-grade grin
    and a glad-hand ready for
    any and all.

    Fuck them all, I say. Only a few
    here are worth their salaries
    and the rest are mannequins
    dressed for the window show.
    Jesus, maybe New York was the
    place, but I’d miss the beach and
    the sunsets here. I’m damn lucky
    even if I can’t have it all.

    Out of the Past

    These hills, that ocean out there, the sun
    heating these roadstered streets at
    noon where the young and the beautiful
    pass me with their eyes empty of light
    but filled with the darkness of longing.
    Too often I’ve lost myself in them,
    swallowed the dark draught and followed
    them west, under the setting moon
    to the edge of the world and oblivion
    until the sun again ripples the air
    above these roadstered streets
    and dressed in someone elses clothes
    I rise to become whoever I may be today.

    The Rain

    I hate the rain here. On location we’re
    knee deep in fake blood and mud
    and the asshole director with no soul
    calls for us to make another take.

    I’m going leave this all soon,
    all the celebrity with its paper-moon
    love and bulb popping phoniness.
    There’s no space for anything but loneliness.

    Sarah Vaughn 

    I took the A-train uptown to hear her sing,
    she said I’d be safe going in with her
    but man, the looks I got. And all around
    everyone looking so fine and cool
    and eyes flashing out of those dark
    spaces, filled with things I’ll never know.

    And when she sang, it was like the moon
    melting down, white pearls and black satin
    and a sudden silence that only she could bring.

    And Thunder Road….

    Jimmy was slim.
    I had a belly.
    Lana Turner is dead.
    And so’s Grace Kelly.
    What does it matter
    Fast or slow
    Thunder Road
    Or Vertigo?

  • William Faulkner In Hollywood

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

    “Don’t be a ‘writer’. Be writing.”

    ~William Faulkner