As a writer In a small city That in the limelight Once seemed much bigger Over the years I’ve Met them all
Icons Poets Rock stars And even A few mobsters
The famous & somewhat famous
Mostly?
All disturbed Or drunk
Or broken As the gin poured Out of their Skin over conversation
Me?
The younger me?
Either idolizing Or immediately Hating the real Faces behind the Image or the mask
And I swore that One-day I’d write A poem about them
For whatever The fuck the Memories are worth
Like a time capsule Before my mind goes Defunct
And before everyone Even forgets who they Were
Are
So let’s start With drinking beers With boxer Mike Tyson At a club called Septembers Long ago
Before drugs Before the champion Before Don King And just before the fight
Mike was a good man A good kid We had great conversations He bought me beers We talked about our lives We talked about life I introduced him to clubs And he drove me downtown Speeding in his White Lamborghini Never stopped By the police
But two years later His entourage wouldn’t Even let you near him
The end of innocence The corruption of fame
See ya kid It was fun
Same bar Different year Wrestler Jake The Snake Comes in wasted, swears At my friend, a beautiful woman The bartender and calls her a See You Next Tuesday
Me?
About 23 with long ass Metal hair and a dangling Dragon earring sitting & writing At the bar
Gets up
And tells good ol’ Jake To quote
” Shut The Fuck Up”
Cause I never liked or Worshipped assholes Never put up with them
Cowards hiding behind Their bullshit personalities
So Jake Wasted & in disbelief Looks at me and says
” WHAT?!”
Looked at him And calmly said
“You heard me”
Jake comes flying At me, I’m ready to kick Him hard in the balls and Run but his wrestling buddies Hold him back struggling
Doorman gives me A high five and as I Leave the bar look at him And say ” Drunk Asshole”
And later on he supposedly
Found God
But the stories of Meeting with fame Continued afterwards So I’ll make them all brief
Because nobody Wants a boring twenty page Poem
Did shots With Anne Waldman Had a conversation about Life and writing and a smoke With a God Named Jim Harrison
One of my favorite moments
Did shots with The metal band Anthrax A long time ago Other bands that came And went
Almost Hooked up With Samantha Fox Until Paul Stanley walked In the club
Thanks Paul
Seriously
Met poet Jim Carroll Who wrote the Basketball Diaries after he read in Albany and drank with him And a crowd of his followers
But poor Jim Was so drunk that You could tell he Was just sick of it all
And I was drunk too So when he said ” Fuck Albany!” I told him ” No, Fuck You!” We’ve got a lot of amazing Shit going on around here And we’re making it happen
Astonished friends & His followers all at once
And I laughed And left the bar
Shook Ferlinghetti’s hand Talked to Ginsberg about Poetry and The Source happening Now
Which Was back then
The true poetry rennisance Of the 1990s
Don’t let the imposters Fool you
I once met Frank Serpico The older version at a bookstore Downtown talking to Bill The owner
Nice man. A bit broken. Shook his hand Liked him up to the point Where he talked about taking His pet German Shepherd out Into the woods and shooting him In the back of the head for biting His hand while feeding him meat
Said ” I could never trust him again”
It was all about ” Loyalty”
Left saddened And shaking my head Realized all our heroes Are really dead
Yet still living
But so much for Memories and memories Sake
Full of whiskey And chance meetings And conversations
Once asked by a middle aged drunk Irishman visiting the states If I’d be interested in joining The IRA over whiskey at the Punk Rock club
Said “No thanks” Over breakfast by 4am
Many nights Of drinking with The local corrupts Back in the day
And these are all the Memories of time and place
Of music, art Poetry & debauchery The local nuance of What some called fame
Sometimes I miss them
But then I think And ask
” Why?”
I’d trade it all in For 5 more minutes Talking to Jim
then? after a time the belittlement and their ego driven jealousy
begins
and in turn they will overlook you to make themselves immortal for a whole ten seconds of fame
and they will fear that you get there 1st
wherever the fuck exactly
that is
and they will secretly & privately worry that their self made images will disinigrate into the thin air that were nothing to begin with in the first place
they will lie about you in private only for their own acknowledgement
while the crowds feed on hype
and believe in their shit
and not your truth or depth
and they will steal your thoughts ideas & creativity and place them upon their own self worshipping alters
without a second thought
hey look what I did
(didn’t)
and they will fear that you will speak the truth and that the masses will accept it
destroying their existence wholly built upon
shit
but the true artist still remains
unbreakable & unphased
laughing at them and creating
which is something and the impossible that they cannot
The poets Of the 21st century Are still well, poets A bit lost at times But here & there & now Recovering from other Generations words Vaulted within their Minds & souls forever
The Beat Manifestos Kerouac and Ginsberg Still stuck in our heads as Frost & Yeats voices Keep playing in The background & As Whitman still Yearns for an America We’ve never seen
Never felt
We have technology We have laptops we have Our ecology falling apart At the seams our oceans Polluted and all our nations Still divided hate and racism & unconquered dreams Running up that hill that A young black girl mentioned
Recently
At some inauguration On the collapse of some Faux American Nazi regime
But there are still words Verses yet to be written & sung
As always
The poet of the 21st century Never getting or fitting The all & everything Within an epiphany Or a sonnet
Some of us even fell off The back of the railroad car Living as traveling punks While others have seen the inside Of the suburban prisons Of their own intricate designs
Our philosophies At best diluted amongst The need for our own Realities & God
Cigarettes & Guns & Coffee
Meaning & Relevance
As we long for our own Ancestoral forests Worshipping animals, trees & rock icons for gone is the God of the harvest and all the Poems of the starry night
Lord Byron & Shelly Burned & buried long ago in their Frock shirts The romance at the end of Their stories
Dead
So we write of our own times Dancing upon these hardcore Graves looking for the missing Pieces of our childhood & the Events of the moment
The news, the headlines.
No longer to dream or Transcend without being Drunk or stoned, medicated Within the lines of something
Lost ~
For the poets Of the 21st century Are still well, poets Searching Here & there & now but still
Looking for that something Looking for the perfect words But never finding them in these Drifting days of media
Writing
The Poet
Sees chaos. Hears laughter
Posts randomly within
The vortex
A photo
To see the dream
So others may see it also
But do not
For the poet Of the 21st century Is not drunk enough Will never be drunk enough
THE DYING TIME, POEMS BY R.M. Engelhardt is a visceral, raw collection of poetry that functions as both a political manifesto and a spiritual eulogy for a fractured America. Published in 2026 by Valhalla Shelter Press, the work captures a sense of immediate crisis, weaving together themes of societal decay, the loss of artistic “magic,” and a fierce, defiant call for resistance against the Death of Democracy and the Rise of Fascism.
Engelhardt’s writing is unapologetically aggressive and deeply cynical of modern institutions, yet it remains rooted in a desperate love for what America once promised: equality and freedom. This is not a book for those seeking comfort; it is a “reckoning” and a manifesto intended to “Witness Man Burn Once More” and create a final stand against the darkness.